Friday, April 27, 2012

Pieces of a Dream

I'm here,
You're gone,
Went away,
I'm all alone,
While you're movin' on it seems,

Ain't got no money,
Barely got this job,
Ain't go no more friends,
And it's just getting worse,
It seems,

Cuz you're gone,
World's in your hands,
And all I've got,
Are these pieces of a dream,

And these tears I cry,
Burnin' up my eyes,all night,
Keepin' me awake all night,
You'd probably say I'm going 2 extremes,

But you're gone,
World's in your hands,
All I've got,
Are these pieces of a dream,

What was supposed 2 be,
Playin' in my mind,
Was lovin' me really so hard 2 do,

Always believed,
Forever was you and me,
No matter what it was you and me,

But now you're free,
Got the world in your hands,
All I've got, are these pieces of a dream,

And these tears I cry,
Burnin' up my eyes,
Keepin' me awake at night,
You'd probably just say I'm going 2 extremes,
But you're gone,
The whole world is in your hands,
All I've got is my broken heart,
And these..
Pieces of a Dream

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Get Over U

I woke up this mornin,
With no motivation,
Should've just went back 2 sleep,
But i gotta get up,
Gotta get ready 2 face another week,

My friends all say i should just move on,
But when i'm all alone at night,
All my friends are gone,
Guess its true,

I just can't get over u

Try 2 force a smile,
Try 2 tell myself i can get thru this,
But the hours are longer,
I'm not any stronger,
And i'm longing 4 ur kiss,

I should be goin out drinkin,
But all i can do, is stay inside,
Thinking about u, Guess its true,

I just cant get over u

Should be the life of the party,
I should be shuttin em down,
Spending my time with every woman in town,
But i miss u.. I miss us..
I should be doing all the things i've never done,
Going to the clubs,
Having so much fun,
But all i think about is u,
Is u....

All my friends say i should move on,
But at night when im crying cuz im all alone,
All my friends are gone,
And i guess its time 2 face the truth,
Theres just no
Getting Over,
U..

Saturday, April 21, 2012

DICK

U pop up at the most inopportune times,
Take over the thought process from my mind,
And intertwine, then turn everything into a fight,
U wanna get out each And every night,
U should be my best friend,
But u r more like an enemy,
I trusted u but lead me astray,
And even tho I should love u,
All I really have to say is I HATE U!!

We got close when I was young,
But u let people take advantage of me,
u betrayed me,
But I stood by ur side faithfully,
Every word u heard u thought it was about u,
It ran thru ur veins,
It made u think u were needed 2,
so over and over again,
When u needed me,
I would hold u,
When ur ego was bruised I was there 2 stroke u,
And all u ever did was betray me,
I'm supposed 2 love u,
But all I can say is I HATE U!!

I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!
I HATE U!!

who am I speaking of,
This 1 unconditional I'm supposed 2 love,
Whatever u call it take ur pick,
My penis,my cock, my fucking...
DICK!!

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Not with me

I want u 2 know,
It's okay 2 go,
U gotta find what will work for u,
Best thing in this case,
Is 2 stand out of ur way,
Anot let u see the tears roll down my face,

Ur someone I will never forget,
With whom time spent I no regret,
I will admit, watching u leave,
Is just about the hardest thing I'll have 2 see,
But u deserve 2 be happy,
Even if it's not with me,

Couldn't get it right,
Tried time after time and we,
Couldn't get out of the fight,
With all of my might,
I'm gonna say the words that I know are right, before I go home 2night,

Ure someone I'll never forget,
With whom all the years spent,
Will not regret,
I will admit, watching u leave,
Is something I never thought I'd have 2 see,
But u deserve 2 be happy,
Even if it's not with me,

Even if it's not with me..

Monday, April 16, 2012

Today

Well, the moving is all done, the house is empty, and life is still in motion, regardless of emotion, hurt, or pain and it all still seems overwhelming and surreal.  Constant questions about the future, was this right? Was this wrong? But How do u break a cycle that has been going on for 20 years? We start out being loving, and compassionate, then slowly migrating towards hurtful and hateful to downright mean to each other. This isn't just HER bad, this is OUR bad.
   My wife is a great mother. She makes the magic happen for the birthdays,  Christmas and all the holidays in between.  She has the patience and the disposition that works well with the crazies that come with being a parent.
   I balance things out with making sure everyone has all the technology and games and HDTV's and "things". I know that my kids never had to do without and or had to feel bad for not keeping up with the "Jones's ".
   Why we couldn't juggle a happy relationship inside of this,  is beyond me. We love each other and probably will always. We are not at war now. It's sad that there is just something that prevents us from being and staying on the same page. . Now we start today on a new chapter,not knowing what lies ahead.
Thanks for everyone's support and well wishes during this most difficult of times.

Chris

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Hello/Goodbye

Hello,
I just wanted 2 hear ur voice,
I needed 2 hear u say my name,
I needed 2 imagine holding ur hand,
While talking on this phone,
So gimme a call,
When u  get home,

Hello,
I just wanted 2 say,
I hope u have a great day today,
Hello,
I just needed u 2 know,
How much I love u so,
When u get a chance 2 call,
I'LL be waiting by the phone,

All it'll take to make me smile,
Is ur voice on the other side,
Saying I love u thinking of u,
And making plans for tonight or tomorrow night,
And the rest of our lives,

Hello,
U never called me back,
So I can take a hint,
I'm getting good at that,
Hello,
There's no need for u to call,
Just like u I don't care at all,
And as soon as this last tear falls,
I'm gone,

Goodbye

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

For U

She and I,
Have our problems,
Yeah she and I,
We got enough 2 deal with,
Without u,

So u have got 2 know,
That it will never be,
U will never come between,
So no matter whatcha do,
I will never leave,
Her for u,

U may be the one,
U may have convinced urself,
Plans for my future,
Spent with somebody else,

U may be able,
2 give me the stars and the moon,
But that's where we differ,
Cuz I don't need all of those things,

I just need love
That would be enough,

But u have got 2 know,
That it will never be,
U won't be the reason,
If I'm gonna leave,I'm gonna leave,
So, I just thought u should know the truth,
I would never leave her,
For u

There only people that I'd ever leave her for is three,
And that's me, myself and I,

She and I have history,
It's just not that easy,
2 look her in the eyes and say,
Goodbye,

So contrar to popular belief,
What u think is gonna happen,
Won't play out quite that way,
She has more respect from me,
Than 2 be that man u're wanting me 2 be,
And besides that,
Here's a fact,
That u never considered,
That might come home 2 roost,

If I left her for u,
What's 2 say that I wouldn't do,
The very same thing 2 u,

So understand,
I'm a grown ass man,
And I've got a lot of decisions 2 make,
But if anybody's heart is gonna break,
It's gonna be, because it's over,
Because our love has come 2 an end,
Not because I was a dog,
And I ran off,
With another woman,

So I need u 2 know,
If I go I go,
But I ain't leaving her,
For,
U...

Saturday, April 7, 2012

The Rest of Mine

Put your hand right here,
Feel the beat of my heart,
2 u and the rhythm of love I sing,
Forever
Forever
For
Ever,
For the rest of your life?
no,
For the rest of mine,

And all eternity,
There ain't never gonna be,
Another thought crossing my mind,
Cuz 4 all others but u, I am blind,
Will u stand by my side,
Forever,
Forever,
Forever,
For
Ever,

For the rest of ur life? No,
For the rest of mine,
And all eternity,

Till my last breath,
If I can make u smile,
My life will be worth while,
And if,
I earn a kiss,
That'll be my,
Definition of bliss,

So I'll wish a wish,
And if that wish comes true,
One day I'll be,
Somewhere next 2 u,

Forever
Forever
Forever
For
Ever,
And all eternity,

For the rest of ur life? No
For the rest of mine...

Friday, April 6, 2012

good morning

haven't met u yet,
but i can't get u off my mind,
never laid eyes on u,
but ur smile gets me every time,

all i wanna do is be the reason u love,
all i wanna do is be the 1 thing of which,
u can't get enough,

never smelled ur perfume,
oh, but i know it's sweet,
never massaged ur back,
or rubbed ur tired feet,

but, my hands are ready,
just as soon as u are 2,
never shared 1 conversation,
but i'm already in love with u,

and all i wanna do is be the reason u love,
all i wanna do is be the 1 thing of which,
u can't get enough,
all i wanna do is be the first one 2 hear ur voice,
when u open ur eyes every day the rest of ur life,
i wanna be the voice there,
that says.. good morning,

wanna learn ur favorite song,
note for note, word for word,
wanna sing it 2 u in the car,
while i'm driving u 2 work,

wanna cook ur favorite dish,
whatever u like for dinner,
for breakfast,
yeah, i'll even do the dishes,

arm in arm walking,
constantly talking,
making all our dreams come true,
i know it sounds a tad abusurd,
but i have never been so sure,
of anything in my life,
as this...

haven't met u yet,
but i can't get u off my mind,
never laid eyes on u,
but ur smile gets me every time,

and all i wanna do is be the reason u love,
all i wanna do is be the 1 thing of which,
u can't get enough,
all i wanna do is be the first one 2 hear ur voice,
when u open ur eyes every day the rest of ur life,
i wanna be the voice there,
that says.. good morning,


last 3 words u'll hear every night...
"i love u"

Thursday, April 5, 2012

2 Believe

Did I take ur name in vain 2 much,
Did I not live like I should,
Did I try 2 hard 2 convince myself,
That I'm not a bad, but a good,

Do I not deserve the promise,
I've been taught my whole life,
Am I fighting 2 hard 2 win,
An already losing fight,

Seems like the world is on my shoulders,
Don't think I can hold the weight,
Don't think that I'm hungry enough,
For every thing that's on my plate,

So if u can hear me calling,
I need a lil help from u,
Cuz I'm only human,
And there's only So much I can do,

They say if u're in need,
Ask and ye shall recieve,
So I'm begging for something from u,
I need something 2 believe...

Something 2 believe...

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Of U And 4ever

Could u hold me close,
Look me in the eye,
Dry every tear that I cry & say,
It'll be alright?

Could u walk with me side by side,
Hand in hand, heart 2 heart,
1 body,soul and mind,

Would it be 2 much 2 ask 4 a kiss,
Would it be 2 much, if every day were just like this?

let me sings the words 2 ur favorite song,
While we slow dance in the kitchen with the radio on,

And I'll cook 4 u like u cook 4 me,
Do the dishes, even laundry,
Sharing our relationship equally,

Stealing kisses every chance I get,
Wanna show u I love u,
Don't wantcha 2 4get,
Never 4get,

When the day comes that I buy u a ring,
I'll get ur daddy's permission,
Then down on 1 knee,

I'll ask u for 4ever will u,
Walk down the aisle,
And say "I do"

This is my dream of u,
My dream of u,
This is my dream of u & 4ever